Dreams.

Nails thru' my heart can't even describe this feeling.
There's no tears already. Am I too numb to even cry?

Not everyone knows, but when I sleep, I can control myself in my dreams. Like, when I feel like having McSpicy in my dreams, hell, I'll walk across oceans just to get McSpicy. But not everynight I'm queen.

Sometimes, I lose control of what I'm doing, sometimes I see things I don't wanna see. And times like these, things I dream will turn to b true. I don't know how many of you believe me, I don't need you guys to believe. I just need to say this out.

You said you want happiness.
I feel like I'm robbing you from it.