things like offending ppl.
pissing everyone off.
scolding all kind of crap words to anyone.
giving my f up attitude.
being irritating.
i guessed ive done a pretty neat job on these today.
at WORK,
i met some things tt are enough to spoil my day.
i got scalded by d iron, which is not even suppose to burn but it did.
i ran around like some crazy women, trying to answer everyone`s question when all my partner did was to sit b d cashier.
i climbed d fking high store trying to get new stocks when im not even supposed to do it cause of my back problems.
someone put her leg in d way and i happened not to see it and walked right into it and ended with a bleeding and broken toenail. the best part is tt bitch STARED at me expecting me to apologise. crazy people.
for SCHOOL,
d results will b out like damn soon. i`ll not get good grades, i know it. but mum has such high expectations of me. i cant possibly disappoint her, which i think will happen.
i didnt study during my o`s period for nuts! blame myself for that. erwin happily joined me watching cartoon over at his house during prelims and late night supper at my house during d actual papers. in d end, we`ll both fall asleep.
jasmine and gang tried to come over and got me to study, in d end, all of us fell aslp and once we woke up, we happily hunt for food.
even yongcong who wouldnt study even if u take his life away, came over to TEACH me chemistry. although we both knew tt it wouldnt happen.
now, d freaking results are out some time next week. ANGIE, thanks for wanting to be there with me to share my joy like how i shared yours last yr. im sorry, u wouldnt see me happy...
at HOME...
i dont know what happened to d family i once had. dad & mum started quarreling everyday. i had to listen to my dad talking bad things bout mum and mum talking bad things bout dad just because im d fking elder one btwn my bro and me. i didnt choose to be in such situation. i didnt even wanted to see them quarrel. i dont mind sharing my room with mum. but its not like she dont have a room of her own. she came over just so because she didnt wanna slp with dad. she would talk bout how i should study hard and get myself a good paying job. she taught me not to believe in guys too much. i didnt wanna hear her cry right beside me at night. slowly, at night... i couldnt sleep. i`ll sleep in d wee hours of d morning cause i cant hear her cry, hear her talk. i`ll wake up late cause i`ll miss out on d whole episode when they`re shouting to each other. i asked myself, what have i done to deserve this...
how i missed school. i dont like d waking up part. im not talking bout that. im referring to d hanging out with ur besties part.
in sec1,
me and angie were in seperable. when we`re not tgt, ppl will start to ask me... "eh, u 2 quarrel ar?" haha. no, we didnt. mrs zhari(form teacher then) even had a private talk to both of us. she was worried that we might go d wrong way in life. hah, in d end, we both laughed and talk bad things behind her back. then, we had this MAJOR quarrel about some things tt are insignificant right now. i think it`s something about dance. or whatever... we didnt talk to each other for MONTHS. haha. i wondered how i could stand so long not talking to her. i missed those days.
in sec2,
i started to get involved in d discipline ppl. am caught almost everyday for things tt i knew i should have done. like tinting my hair, shortening my skirt till it`s so damn short. drawing on my shoes, having longgggg fingernails. haha. i rmb those mornings where i had to drag ppl into d toilet with me and help me spray my hair to black just cause there`s gonna be a hair check in d morning. then it came my first relationship, it lasted for some time. again ANGIE was with me during my ups and downs. but this time, peiqi & huiping started to appear in my life. i missed swaping my seats with randomn unwilling ppl to sit with them and sing songs in d middle of d lessons. i was always d only girl who didnt do my hmwk and all. once, angie shouted at some teacher whose name ive forgotten. haha. she used the method i used on d VP which got them all really pissed off. from tears to joy, they were with me. i started to learn bad things, but they were there to correct me. =D
in sec3,
we splited up into different classes. even though our time table totally crash, we`ll make sure we catch up with each other during breakfast b4 school starts. even though im always late. in my new class, all of them were kinda hardworking. i wondered wad happened to me. haha. we had those KILLING dance practices that always leave my legs in blue black, causing scars all over me. i had d coolest teacher ever. which other teacher would be hotter, have tattoos, smokes, tinted hair and speaks ANG MOH?! he was d one who spurred me on to improve in my english. if i didnt get him as my teacher, i think i`ll probably stay as a cheena twit. who else can u scold d f word to and get a slight warning for it only?
in sec3(again),
new class again. here`s where ive known d coolest neighbour, dancer, gays, assholes, bitches and all. haha.
i missed skipping school every other day just because im too lazy to wake up.
i rmb climbing over d gate when i wanted to run out of a school very much.
i rmb being nice to my new classmates and most of them said, "at first i saw u, i thought u were fierce." thanks ar. =.="
during flag day, we went to catch a movie.
during d camp at malaysia, i was in some group that wasnt having d best of luck. it rained when we were canoe-ing and d bright sun came out when we were required to run all over d huge place.
i rmb being scared when taking my end of yr results, when i knew tt i had made it, i couldnt stop crying!
den it was graduation day for my bestest friends ever. all i rmbed was tt i was crying for d whole day. i missed them so damn much. it was angie`s bday, we had this mini party thing in school.
i rmbed crying when we were all supposed to take pictures.
i rmbed crying when i saw photographs from our outings posted up on d screen.
i rmbed crying and hugging each one of them when they walked past tt i felt so damn stupid.
i rmb running out of tissue and michelle whiped off my tears for me. =)
i rmb crying after i signed yongcong`s grad-book.
i rmb crying when i hugged them all tgt for d last time.
i rmd tt i couldnt stop crying.
in sec4,
at d beginning of d yr, i was pretty stressed out coping with studies and my ever-favourite dancing lessons. i had this major competition which i had total confidence of. it was almost like camping in school for me. i can stay up to 12hrs there. mum complained tt i didnt had enough time with d family, which was starting to fall apart. when we got through d qualifying rounds for danceworks! i called angie up and screamed right into d phone. she was high too! she very much wanted to come for d finals but she couldnt make it. i had extra tickets with me. so, i invited qi, ping... jasmine... and some randomn guys whom i forgot. hehe. and MY dad, mum and brother. it`s d first time tt they saw me perform tgt as a family. =D it felt so high.
i rmb almost crying out loud when i know tt we didnt get d top3.
i missed d days where i hung out with erwin at pondok with his friends, playing daidee.
i rmb drinking d leftovers cause some ppl are too drunk to carry on.
i rmb sleeping at d north-east cdc thingy even though we were sitting at d front row.
i rmb getting into trouble every lessons cause of d same old reasons.
i rmb getting sent out of class which we happily formed a chat grp.
i rmb mrs lee, d ever so pretty drama mama.
miss tan, one of d few who had faith in me. i swear tt if i got a good grade for maths, it`s thanks to her.
we decided to do a dance for HWA (some needy ppl place) even though we knew tt it was too rushed. but i swear it was total HOTNESS. everyone came to my house cause my living room is so damn empty. i rmb dancing with allen and jasmine randomnly. i rmb cracking my brains to complete d whole thing which in d end, we just copied some of d steps from my dance. =x i rmb siangann singing some song which was out of tune right from d beginning till d end.
on teachers day, i wrote this thank-you letter to miss tan, now known as MRS cheah.
i rmbed crying upon seeing wanling up on stage with her touching speech.
i rmbed walking out from d hall with michelle with swollen eyes and turned a 180degrees when i saw someone i didnt wanted to see.
i rmbed crying back in class.
i rmb ppl kept stuffing tissues to me cus i couldnt stop(again).
i rmbed crying when miss tan said her thank-you-back speech, well, so were most of d girls.
on grad-day, i was total bored. without my friends like angie, qi and ping. it just wasnt so right.
during d o`s period, i forgot what i did. only rmbed tt i didnt sleep every night and went for papers str8.
then i started to get closer to cheryl, we had fun tgt though we hang out for such a short period of time only. cheryl and yq and erwin were nice and invited me to their chalet which only 8ppl turned up for. i rmd taking care of drunkards even though i drank quite a bit myself! =.="
during d prom period, due to some family problems, i almost couldnt make it for prom. but thanks to d everloved JASMINE and current bf and gang, i went. it wasnt as fun as i expected it to be. but it was great. i mean... ok. nvm. here, if this helps in explaining...
THE princess.
(go to d post in november/december`o6 if u wanna see more.)
From d deepest corner of my heart, thanks u to all who are there, had been there, was there, wanted to be there.
(another unbelievable thing JOANN does is tt she can go on typing and typing away.)
((it`s 6.51am now))
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